Demon on the right shoulder angel on the polar I'm standing in between taking a minute to think it over Angel on the left shoulder demon on the polar Booth stand on chips like pillars that grow as I get older Demon on the right shoulder Angel on the polar Angel on the left shoulder Demon on the polar On the one hand I've got plenty faith Because I wake up everyday Turn around and face these fakes On the other hand I don't believe in shit Just another twenty something Depressed existentialist Demon on the right shoulder Angel on the polar Malcontent in the middle Wake me when it's over Angel on the left shoulder Demon on the polar Atheist in the middle But my faith could break boulders Camus and Beckett keep on Fighting for my paradigm Does it matter? Does it not? Will I survive this time? Camus and Beckett keep on Fighting for my paradigm Guess it means that Beckett wins As long as I keep writing rhymes Does it matter even if it matters to us Either way one day not too far away We'll all be dust I've been asking questions for years And getting no response So sorry if it seems I'm in the middle Just a little lost Demon on the right shoulder angel on the polar I'm standing in between taking a minute to think it over Angel on the left shoulder demon on the polar Booth stand on chips like pillars that grow as I get older Demon on the right shoulder Angel on the polar Angel on the left shoulder Demon on the polar Demon with a death grip Angel with a sly grin On a Wisconsin death trip Singing along to sirens They're sitting on my shoulders And I get advice in stereo I can hear you talking But I don't think you exist tho Me, myself, I, and my paradigm Keep on trying to work it out But we just can't see eye to eye I change minds depending on my part of speech Because my morals get redefined By who speaks on what I preach Speak love in praxis speak from the Heart and preface actions Yeah I know they hating But the hate is just distractions Me, myself I, and my paradigm I'm not sure that I exist But I know that I'll be fine Me, myself I, and my paradigm I'm not sure that I exist But I know that I'll be fine...

I want you to make me feel I want you to make me I want to be your girlfriend I want you to make me feel like them I want to be your girlfriend I want you to be there till the end Don't I look pretty in heroin chic? Tell me good night with a kiss on the cheek Me on your arm isn't this all you dreamed Isn't the fantasy all that seems? I've never been looked at as more than a pixie You picked me and no I don't want you to fix me I want you to talk to me honestly promise me That I'm not just a trophy again I am more than a dream I am more than I seem I am more than larger than lifeless I'm not a wisp on the breeze I'm not a god on my knees I can't talk because You suffocate me They want the suicide girl but they don't wanna talk scars They just wanna take me to the back of the bar In the corner in the dark In their eyes is a spark Like they just found love But they don't care about my heart They don't care about my head Wouldn't care if I were dead Coming to my wake calling me hot to my friends I just need to be alone to feel human again And I hope that they remember me as real in the end They don't want the long talks Just the quiet stares Lights in my eyes Or a soul piercing glare My details are unimportant Just a draft in your sketchbook They don't want my story Only care about my look Look at this. Look at you. Look at me. Look in to my eyes and just tell me what you see Ever think that you would miss the forest for the trees Ever notice how you fetishize my disease I would need your support if I needed you at all No need for a harbor in the storm or a port of call Never even call delete my number Woman of your dreams you can see me in your slumber

Queer kid weird shit I don't even talk straight Mouth sounds mangled Let me be deliberate Allow me reiterate I am not the norm I am something more Keep your calm Cause I mean no harm Hold your heart and Lay down your arms Allow to me to deliver A sliver of some silver tongued Weekend rhetoric Let's get devilish No remorse dark horse Platform swag storm Matterhorn matador Make your favorite maiden sore Catch me riding four deep in a duo With three ladies looking like different shades of blow Hard white, tan, and a lemon head Everybody's in to it Everybody's in the bed Imagine me thinking that I'm better off dead Five years ago That's some shit I would've said I bring the noise and battle boys and burn it down x3 You homies ain't ready cause I'm coming with that loud My depression's a beast Well I'm a monster And I'm about to dead that fucker Like I'm a mobster I kill concepts War on terror War on drugs Where's the war on error? It's all wrong Winning in the worst way Mission accomplished Been did it the first day Burning down the birth place Been deading the effigies Bout to kill more careers Than monotonous messages You're saying the same shit over and over You're saying the same shit over and over You're saying the same shit over and over Do you see how fucking infuriating that is? I talk mad shit And switch it up like magic Abracadabra I mastered that Hat trick Tricks are for prostitutes It's an illusion Unlike these hits to your head Causing contusion If I ever made it bang It'd be like Kurt Cobain cocaine in my veins Shotgun to my brain But I don't do coke And I will not choke The thing I know To be the last voice of hope It fell silent I've been Trapped Dead behind eyelids Islands Aren't a getaway destination I've been stranded for months Are you testing my patience It's stretched thin Got caught on can't win Kept on trucking That's the mode I stay in More than vacant Never felt complacent Never saw the point in Smiling with fakeness Fake it til you make it No I'd rather take it Digest my dismay And display my greatness That rumble? That loud? That's my certainty I don't keep that in anything Except for me

When I step up on the scene I look so clean Mixter Motormouth with voice like a dream Smooth as ice cream. I'm the best you've ever seen Now you can go to work or you can Billie Jean B-i-z V-i-c now you gotta know me Been known to keep some high profile homies I take em anywhere like an ATV and when they let me in the bar they didn't ask for ID I'm feeling like 'Pac with All Eyez on Me So when I reach in my pocket I pull my wallet slowly There're probably cops spying on me I belong on silver screens like I'm Omar Sharif Feeling as great as the barrier reef Didn't talk about me then they buried the lead I annihilate like I carry a piece that would break all the rules of a treaty of peace (get it) It isn't even complicated I could leave em annihilated Not a nihilist but don't believe a word that you're saying I just keep on keeping on with all the records I'm making and in the wake It's all annihilated and vacant Everybody speaking on being a beast (well...) That don't exclude V-i-c in the least Glint in my eyes and blood stain on my teeth Leaving foes and their friends all deceased in their sleep Check for my name It should be on the list Or a VIP pass printed up on my fist Matter of fact better put me at the top of the list When you factor in the fangs and the furious fists It's like I exist solely to make people wish I had a switch to make me go from boss to prince Well, I *am* a sexy mother fucker but I can't always control what the strength of my venom is Veni Vidi Vici Veni Vidi Vicious I came, I ain't seen shit, and I don't know where your chick is Yeah, I heard you got a problem with me But to a beast you're not a problem you're a feast (let's eat) Back again with the high stepping finale Stunting hard on haters like BIG going back to Cali Biz ready to rowdy Bust it and then I'm outtie But my bars so evident You couldn't reasonably doubt me Go ahead without me I can make it on my own Forget the keys I want the deed to the land under your home And I'm saying it now because I want you to know that Even if you on that I already own that I don't plan on going back to the days When my mental mainstays were anxiety and malaise I'm halfway dead. Undiagnosed. How come my live shows are still liver than most Propose a toast to the new kid on the block Who takes a fifteen minute set and straight annihilates the spot Nihilist or not I don't believe in your shit Because you told me quit rapping when I'm clearly killing it

Cover me I'm going in Kill spray everything Jaws lock tight Like methamphetamine PCP when I'm On this beat Pulling out flesh When I floss my teeth I swear to God They want see me act up Try to push the pacifist To the point of dumbstruck Like I'm gone fuck around And rely on dumb luck Put the body in a bin And leave it for a dump truck Must think I'm stupid Like I'm gonna use this life On the worthless type And then lose my life On mandatory twenty five to life Like my pride's worth it N***a, yeah right Still young enough to shoot for dead at 27 And that's the only way they'll ever mention me with legends 27 candles 21 gun salute 27 candles and I'm still as statues I've got an obsession with death Well who doesn't it? Mine is more about Keeping control on who does it State sacrifice Call it execution I know enough to keep an eye On who is eyeing what I'm doing Paranoia Extra precautions Pardon my pause I think hear somebody coming Right around the corner It's as good as over Don't bother calling police Call a coroner Still young enough to shoot for dead at 27 And that's the only way they'll ever mention me with legends 27 candles 21 gun salute 27 candles and I'm still as statues Live fast and die young That's the anthem Die young, dude You'll sell more albums Still young enough to die as old as Hendrix Then it's R.I.P. Bizzy Now your legacy is endless You can blame it all on manicdepression You can blame it all on my new obsession Self destruction Passive aggression Always being told Never learn my lessons Never been shit Might never be shit Still not gonna let it end like this Keep this bit of pride wrapped inside my fist Just to keep the suicide off my wrist I am not sure of anything that happens I am steadfast stand by my actions If I make the list of dead at twenty seven Burn the fucking corpse And throw a party like I'm living Still young enough to shoot for dead at 27 And that's the only way they'll ever mention me with legends 27 candles 21 gun salute 27 candles and I'm still as statues

Maybe it's a problem or maybe a bad habit Maybe I'm a monster or maybe I'm just manic Alright Alright Alright Maybe I'm just manic alright It's hard to get rest when the mania's plaguing ya So I smoke at after hours until I'm sore in the trachea Trying to keep focus 'cause I wanted to say that uhhh I've got so much to say and intermittent aphasia And then the media's saying I've got the makings of greatness But what's the use for potential When I'm lacking in my patience I got pages on pages Only been existing on stages I been avoiding all my friends to let them think that I made it Maybe it's a problem or maybe a bad habit Maybe I'm a monster or maybe I'm just manic Alright Alright Alright Maybe I'm just manic alright When they see I'm so prolific they get really amazed Until I get depressed and I start sleeping for days Confused everybody when I said I was feeling ace Because they knew I'd get on stage and still fuck them in the face I'm trying to etch out my place But I gotta lot on my plate But I can't leave it up to chance cause that's just testing my fate Don't look at me I'm a monster at the least an impostor I'm not really confident I just been faking the posture Maybe it's a problem or maybe a bad habit Maybe I'm a monster or maybe I'm just manic Alright Alright Alright Maybe I'm just manic alright I haven't slept more than four hours in a week and a half And the biggest weakness that I have is keeping this panther in the bag I'm the cancer and the answer but in this rap I'm a bastard Cause not a one of you fuckers could be my father or pastor Break out the liquor and laughter Cause it just keeps fleeting faster Feels like I'm losing my grip and sliding back to disaster Kill the clatter cut the chatter I break the mold where it matters You wouldn't like me when I'm angry I'm bigger and badder than Banner Maybe it's a problem or maybe a bad habit Maybe I'm a monster or maybe I'm just manic Alright Alright Alright Maybe I'm just manic alright

Liquor molly marijuana cocaine and codeine I only do dope cause I don't make enough dopamine Liquor molly marijuana cocaine and codeine I only do dope cause I don't make enough dopamine With this liquor in my system Mixed with the downers I'm dippin They said that I been acting different I said yeah but I'm living Can't tell me nothing I stay stunting Acting bad But I'm fronting May be a fraudulent facade But don't keep pushing my buttons I swear I'm scared of my killer instinct So let's keep the killer in me And if not all I wanna do Is keep him pointed straight at me I'm Masculinity's enemy Poison patient and remedy Consent frames my morals And its morals over everything Liquor molly marijuana cocaine and codeine I only do dope cause I don't make enough dopamine Liquor molly marijuana cocaine and codeine I only do dope cause I don't make enough dopamine Couldn't stop shaking took an Ativan Took a little bump from an avid fan Try to calm down but I can't again You on one and I'm at a ten And now I Can't stop feelin myself Feelin my feelin myself I don't need anyone's help Know I'm going to hell For things I intended So well I got a paved road I walk down as I stay throwed Wasting my whole bank roll Bought some white but I hate blow But it calms me down to think straight tho Usually erratic now my brain is slowed I'm clearly fucked Best that I can do is fake an o Liquor molly marijuana cocaine and codeine I only do dope cause I don't make enough dopamine Liquor molly marijuana cocaine and codeine I only do dope cause I don't make enough dopamine Liquor, molly, marijuana been there done that Going back for seconds better wear a dunce cap My guns don't clap my guns don't exist I avoid violence keeping razors off my wrist Use words instead of a fist and my voice is a bist Sorry my bad I meant a beast I just finished off a fifth Mea culpa shoulda used a cup or A little self restraint now my bike could use a bumper I'm taking all callers taking on cars I'd take on a tank if we take it that far Ghost of Mars I'm spitting more bars I'm feeling like Ice Cube I still go hard Think that I'm a work of art beautifully flawed My old shit still has em saying oh my god I don't like the drugs But the drugs like me I just wanna die Cause I'll never be healthy I don't like the drugs But the drugs like me I just wanna die Cause I'll never be healthy Liquor molly marijuana cocaine and codeine I only do dope cause I don't make enough dopamine Liquor molly marijuana cocaine and codeine I only do dope cause I don't make enough dopamine

I will tear my insides out I will tear my insides out I will tear my insides My insides My insides out I was born a burden Trouble from the start Bad chemical head And a malformed heart I have watched myself die a million times today To keep you from seeing it once that's the price I pay Suicide soundtrack playing Sitting by the mirror that's a view to a kill I will tear my insides out I will tear my insides out I will tear my insides My insides My insides out Everyone knows Everyone cares And all of that guilt is what's keeping me here Everyone knows Everyone cares And all of that guilt is what's keeping me here If you loved me You would say goodbye and turn your head If you really loved me You would say goodbye Goodbye I will tear my insides out I will tear my insides out I will tear my insides My insides My insides out I don't want to leave you feeling empty Because no one should live like this I don't want you to learn to live without me But no one should live like this Every day I wish I never were But it never works No it never works I will tear my insides out I will tear my insides out I will tear my insides My insides My insides out

We are who we are When we aren't ourselves It hurts us all I hurt you so badly I can't take it back Alone I crawl Listening to podcasts sitting on the patio Smoking cigarettes by myself before the show Trying to stay present Even if it's lonely This is how I made it This is how it's gone be If I can fight through feeling like this I think that I can make it Been so long since I felt anything at all So dissociated And I think Better yet I know I'll see another sunrise even if it's alone And when everybody's gone I can always come home And if they all come back I really should've known Gotta learn to trust right along with the love Can't let the fear be stronger than us Gotta learn to hear when they tell me they love me If it sounds sincere then assume that it must be We are who we are When we aren't ourselves It hurts us all I hurt you so badly I can't take it back Alone I crawl Fighting panic attacks with Benadryl and cigarettes Because I rap and I'm black I'm clearly an addict Always had a hard time asking for help It feels so selfish doing things for myself Everybody loves me Everybody cares No matter how I am They feel better that I'm there It's just so hard to believe you It's just so hard to believe you I've been through so much all alone I've been through so much all alone It's no ones fault but mine you weren't there I built up these walls with vacant stares Left you knocking at the door With no one home We are who we are When we aren't ourselves It hurts us all I hurt you so badly I can't take it back Alone I crawl I just wanna let you know I'm back I hope it's for good You know I can't promise I wish that I could I don't like leaving anymore than you like seeing it I'm trying to get better I hope you can believe in it Hope you can stay But if you do go away Know that I get it And I still give thanks Know that I'm still about to do what it takes I'm doing this to cure way more than the heartbreak I've been on the verge of a breakdown Can't even look myself in the face now Can't take the way I can't feel when I'm being given love and can't conceive it could be real I can't live like this anymore And no one should And no one should And no one should We are who we are When we aren't ourselves It hurts us all I hurt you so badly I can't take it back Alone I crawl